Baabaaji !!

Baabaji, my father's colleague's father, was like a father figure for our family.

He pampered me n my brother like his own grand children. Dad and Baabaji would sit and chat for hours over a cup of tea and would get into endless discussions on their favorite topic ... law and liars !! I stopped missing my grand father because of him. He always told us ... to be on our own .. and to be like their "bahu" ... my mom ... he had the highest regard for her and would often cite her as a women of dignity and simplicity ...

He passed away when I was in high school. I did not mourn over his death ... coz for me he was still alive . His soul somewhere ... guides and protects me always. I was going through a bad phase for the past few months and could not come in terms with reality on my own. Few days back ... Baabaji came in my dreams. He said ... "let go of things, don't work too hard on them. Don't let a part of ur body to dominate ... free urself ... from the bondage ... look at the zenith ... u need to fly ... and u will fly only when you have the desire to do so"!!

The dream changed my perspective, about myself and my life ... I got up in the morning with a huge smile on my face ... coz I was blessed ... Baabaji blessed me ... and I decided to take on my life .. with respect and enjoyment. Past is past ... it has passed ... spoiling ur present means a greater burden of regretful past later in life ... I did not want to do that. I wanted to live my life yet again ... on my terms ... So, it was because of him, that I gained the self confidence to move ahead in life and I have moved on ... now I laugh at how I made a fool of myself ... indulging in situations that were beyond my control.

Thank you Baabaji ... though I know this word "thank you" is not suited to our relation, as you are a part of me now, a part of my sub conscience ... But nevertheless ... thank you for making my life ... wonderful yet again :)