For A and A ...

Its incredible how connected I feel to you. These couple of months have brought us closer and I feel I am lucky to have known you! Coming back to "our" lives ... I think we have been saved from a disastrous future (DISASTROUS ... no kidding). I don't complain any longer ... as I can see with eyes broad open why somethings did not work out. Have been reading profusely lately and have realized the best way to handle certain things in life is to leave it to the eternal power. With time we would have all our answers and we would know of the "bigger" plan which was engendered for us. Forget (and forgive) everything and move on and remember there is deliberation on someone's part to get you where you are today! 

Strange how different people have similar stories and once you know you are not the only one, it helps to sooth your tempestuous mind. Anyways, just have to tell you that I cherish our bond and I truly believe that we wil get there someday! :)

Love and Peace! 

Maa ...

In the past couple of months, I have come to realize that there is no bigger love than that of a mother for her child. A bond without expectations and commitments - it comes naturally and instinctively. As a mother, someone who bore you for nine months, she knows you in and out. Your happiness makes her glow and if you are sad, she will be sleepless for nights! Even though I have lost my belief in relationships in general but my bond with my mother has only gone stronger. When people told me I was uncouth, my mother told me I was the best daughter one could ever get. When I was referred as someone who expects a lot, she mirrored my capacity to love unwillingly and effortlessly. When I lost my belief, she prayed for me instead! Her faith in me has helped me to regain my lost self .... and I will be indebted to her for life for bringing me into this world and for being a mentor, friend and for being the best mother in this world :) ... love you Maa!

Start and end ...

Its strange how life moves through phases. Right from being born as a bundle of happiness, to getting old and then to the eternal end - each phase is marked by different sets of experiences, learnings, and memories (good or bad).

I am entering into an age group that is faced with one of the most painful processes of existence. Its nothing but a metamorphosis - get rid of the weak and make way for the young. Last to last month, my family lost one of our very dear uncles. Today we lost my eldest uncle - someone I and my brother were extremely fond of. On our regular trips to Jammu as kids, we would look forward to seeing him. Its a sad feeling - they are the same set of people who inspired me and motivated me in different ways while I was growing up. And now they are meeting the ends and are being liberated from this world ... from the endless suffering, expectations and emotions. 

These incidents make my belief stronger that there is nothing that one can control. We are like puppets performing the given roles. There is only as much you can do - rest is almost planned for you. 

Rest in peace Baetoth. We will miss you! 

Third in a row!!

Let me start with a quote .. "akal thokar khaane se aati hai, badaam khaane se nahi." I read this on one my friend's facebook wall and stole it right then. Makes so much sense. You don't learn unless you fall. But remember for the light to shine bright, darkness is required! So here is to hope, to light, to life, to a new place, to new relationships! 

Wondering why everything is "new." I recently moved to Arizona, and this is my third move in US (believe it or not third move in three years). In a conversation with one of my friends, I said it sounds pretty sad to move around so much but I have only learnt things by being at different places and meeting new people. Said this, life would definitely be easier without such moves ... but I don't regret them. They bring in the required change ..  help to forget the past and move into the future with less doubts and regrets; and  more adventure. For now I do miss B'burg, it was my second home. That place holds so much warmth even with -10 degree celsius! Lets see if the warm weather here can compete against the warmth of my second home in US. 

Love, peace ... and loads of happiness!